I see trees, but they're all dead.

Anyone ever heard of chacha? The thing you text with questions, and they send an answer to you? Well I texted "Who is Alayna Whisper?" to chacha, and I got this answer "She has a blog on her site about being dyslexic. You can read about her life on the internet." Bahaha. Even though I am dyslexic, my blog is NOT about that.

So anyways, I went to that college with an open mind, and I still don't know if I should go there or not. I left my charger in the dorm...my roomate is supposed to be sending it to me. They have an awesome program that relates to graphics design, but it's not specifically for graphics design, and I'm afraid I won't be qualified in the other areas of that major. BUT if I did go there, I'd get a Mac book pro. :D

It's been over 2 weeks since I've seen the Fed-Ex guy, and I am beyond thrilled! haha. And the new guy at my work supposedly walked out and quit. I kind of hope he did. I miss the girl he replaced. She was nice and she and I actually worked well together. Me and the new guy didn't at all.


Sorry this blog post is so short and I'm sorry I haven't been reading everyone's blogs lately, I've been soooo busy. I barely had time to write this, but I thought I'd give you all an update. I'll try to update my story either later tonight, or tomorrow.

Drive into the river Bob.

My week without parents has come to an end. They returned from their travels. Fun, eh?


So on thursday-friday, some friends and I are going to visit this college. To be honest, I really don't know what I want to do in college. I really don't know what to major in or anything. I've only chosen graphics design because it's fun, but I don't necessarily have a great desire to go into that field. I really want to do something with music, because it's all I ever think about and I'm always putting little tunes and lyrics together (most don't get finished though). But I don't think I have enough talent to actually MAJOR in it. Another thing about college is the expense. I mean, scholarships are for the really smart people and government funding is for those who can't afford to go to college at all. And all that money is being sucked up right now. So where does that leave me?? I really want to be able to go to a college away from here, but what will probably happen is I'll go to a local college for 2 years. Yuck.


I've been obsessed with saving every penny I own as of late. My job doesn't pay much, and I now have bills that I have to pay, so I try not to waste money on stuff. I need money for college.


So, last week, the Fed-ex guy didn't visit me at all. I was absolutely thrilled. XD But as I was walking from the library I passed a fed-ex truck that was parked. And I saw the driver, and I bolted. It was him. After his last visit I do not want to see him again. I mean COME ON! Don't go on and on about not being a stalker, then ask for my freaking phone number. I'm only working 1 day this week, and I pray that he does not come in.


So I'm doing this talent thing called Fine Arts Festival, and I'm trying to decide if I should enter this song my brother and I are working on. I'm already doing a poem and a human video. We only have the melody, no lyrics yet. I'm playing with lyric ideas, but nothing is fitting yet. And the deadline is early next month! I'm freaking out here. I don't want to make a fool of myself if this song isn't perfect. So if I mess up....yeah I don't want to think about that. I try not to think about certain things. I have no time to lately, and I like it that way.


*sigh* I should probably start working on C's necklace. Who knows how long that's gonna take. Time flies, and I don't want her birthday to go by and it not be done.

I need new music. Any suggestions?

Sooo I finally got twitter. Not that I have alot of friends who actually use it. So far, I only have 2 people who I "follow." Thanks to one of my friends, my phone rang at 5 in the morning with a new update. Let me know if u guys have twitter! Or if you don't want me to have it, then um..I guess you can just not tell me. lol


I need to clean my room. I asked Cady to help me, but um....she said no. Thankfully it's just clothes I have to put away. Mostly anyways....


Ok, so I looked ahead in my English class, and I'm gonna have to read Hamlet. BLEH. My English class is so annoying. They make us translate stupid things and find metaphors that only freakin scholars could figure out! And like every other book I've had to read for this class, I'm gonna have to write how this book impacted me and what I learned from it. Um..well, I couldn't understand the book, so I guess it inspired me to drop out of school. Bahaha. Speaking of books, my uncle gave me this book series to read, and I thought it was going to be good because everyone was dying, and it wasn't appearing to be a happily ever after series, but then I got to the last book, and they somehow set everything right, and made it into a happily ever after book. AHH COME ON! Happily ever after doesn't exist! I hate books that aren't realistic. And I'm really getting sick of romances. They're all too predictable.


I really like having warmer weather, but I still want to go snowboarding. I only got to go 4 times this year. So, it can stay warm in my area, but on the ski slopes it can stay cold. Haha once I went skiing in 72 degree weather. SO awesome. I was in a t-shirt. Unfortunately I got sunburnt, but that's besides the point. How awesome is it to fly down a slope in a t-shirt? Let me tell ya, the adrenaline was PUMPIN'.


So Cady, I have decided that although you do not like the beach, I am going to teach you how to surf. You don't really essentially need to wear a bathing suit, so don't freak out. AND you can put super-duper powerful sunscreen on so that you don't lose any of your "paleness." Oh and snowboarding. You haven't tried that yet either.


I had the most odd dream ever, and I'm trying to remember it....

She's the salt of the earth and she's dangerous

Love that song. Haha.



ANYWHO, so I finally got my stupid license. Which is restricted due to not having a vehicle. Hopefully my dad is getting a new[er] car. But of course that means I'd be stuck with the crappy Bonneville. Oh well, at least it's a car.


My first time driving alone was to work to figure out where my employers got messed up with my pay. Turns out they owe me 17.95 hours worth of pay. Wierd right? But now it's settled. The day was absolutely perfect (weather wise anyways). It was like 60 degrees, sunny, and my hair was pretty good that day too.


I had an hour long nosebleed this morning. Fun stuff. It didn't break my record though. My longest nosebleed was 3 hours. Haha once I almost passed out at a theme park because I lost so much blood. Everyone was so scared. Also, I was at Six Flags once, and I was sitting in the water park with a nosebleed, and this lady walks up to me and asks "Were you the person who cracked their head open in the wave pool?" Lady, If I cracked my head open, I would not be sitting here with no one around me. I would be in the hospital under careful observation. I mean seriously. Where are some people's brains? Thank GOD I'm not wierded out by blood and the like.


Why is it that people's knees hurt when the weather is damp? I mean my knees always hurt, but that's besides the point. I have joint issues. It runs in the family.


Ok, so I really want to learn how to skateboard. I already snowboard and surf. When I was younger, my mother wouldn't let me learn because she was afraid I'd get seriously hurt. But come on, I got seriously hurt from doing random acts of stupidness anyways. Now I just need someone to teach me....and a skateboard of course...


52 days!

58 days until freedom. Sort of...kind of...not really....

You tear me down

And then you pick me up

You take it all

And still it's not enough

You try to tell me you can heal me

But I'm still bleeding

And you'll be the death of me

I've been playing/listening/singing to this song non-stop. Yesterday was a hard blow, even though I expected it the whole time. I know him too well.

On a lighter note, I'm getting caught up in schoolwork. I surprised even myself. Too bad Pre-Calculus isn't going as fast. Why do we need Calculus anyways? It's not like the majority of us use it for our jobs or anything. I know it's there to "exercise our brains," but there are other more useful ways of doing that, like learning multiple languages or something. Latin, Spanish, and French all exercised my brain. Too bad I can't remember much of them though...I really want to learn German. A: because I have German blood, and B: because it's is very similar to the English language. I guess that's be because they both evolved from Anglo-Saxon.

Oh btw. Yes Shaniqua, my parents WOULD let me wear red skinny jeans. I already have magenta. Which, surprisingly, my mother likes. My brother calls them my "Barney" pants and hates them with a passion. They are NOT the same purple as Barney and if he hates them, then oh well.

I'm thinking of dying the underpart of my auburn/red hair blonde. What do you think? Either that, or an even bigger highlight where the old one is.

It's too bad I'm not sad. It's casting over...

Electric blue in a sea of pink

So I was driving down my road, coming home from work the other day, and a Fed-ex truck was coming the opposite way. Not unusual, packages come for my neighbors all the time. I look at the driver, and who do you think it was? Yeah, I quickly looked the other way. I don't want him knowing I live on that road. What a creep.



Water with a little bit of lemmon concentrate is my drug. Drinking some now...




I love saturday mornings. I get to see my cousins. My uncle's nickname is B.U.M. Bad uncle M. (as opposed to Good uncle M) But now that he had his foot amputated, we might start calling him P.L.U.M. Peg leg uncle M. Personally I think B.U.M. fits him better. Ugh, I want my cousin's red skinny jeans.

So yesterday someone thought I looked like a movie star...interesting. I wasn't even dressed up, just an electric blue t-shirt, black jeans, and a light blue scarf (that I made).

For some reason, everyone on my dad's side of the family thinks I'm emo. I'm not emo, even though I have serious emo undertones. I mean, can I help it if my hair is a diffrent color than theirs and I wear clothes that they don't? Bahaha I think I'm converting Beckster. She's been buying more clothes that I would wear lately. :P I'm just that awesome.

And my latest stunt didn't really help my argument. They all somehow found out through the grapevine about my salt burn. THANK YOU JOE FOR PICKING THE BIGGEST ICE CHUNK IN EXISTANCE!

I've been in a really sarcastic and cynical mood lately....

Can you say: AWKWARD!

What up with the Fed-Ex guy? Everyday I'm at work this Fed-Ex guy comes in and says "hi". He's really nice and stuff. He brought me candy on Valentine's Day, and is trying to get me an internship at this graphics design store he delivers to. Apparently I "brighten his day." Now I'm all for friendships and stuff, but EVERYDAY? I wouldn't mind seeing him like once or twice a week, but everyday I work is just too much. Everytime he comes in it takes up like 20 min of my time. Apparently he's got a granddaughter with the same name as me, and is around the same age. Ya know, I really probably wouldn't mind if he was in his 20s and was REALLY cute, but he's like 60. o0o there's this guy who works next door that is really cute. SHANIQUA I FOUND YOU A GUY! =]

Moving on. You know what I HATE? When people don't answer my texts. It annoys the crap out of me. You wouldn't ignore me irl would you? nope.


The sky outside is an interesting grey color...hm I like it. Makes me want to write a poem about it...I'll get to that later. Maybe I'll post it.


Applying for colleges is annoying. You gotta write an essay on why you would like to go to their school and I'm like "I don't want to go to your school, my mom is making me apply here as another option." Then after you apply, you get these phone calls from the school giving you the third degree. At least I got a free t-shirt from one of them. =] AND it actually fits! None of my free t-shirts in the past have ever fit me. They've always been like 10 sizes bigger than me. Of course, it doesn't help that I'm so skinny either...but whatever.


I hate realistic dreams, they ruin reality.


One more week and I get facebook back!! WHOOT!